Psyched Out by a Computer

So here it is a month almost since my last blog and I’m here to make a confession; I have been psyched out by my new computer.  Specifically, the new MS Word 2013 (or whatever version it is. 

For days, and then weeks, I have been beating myself up because I wasn’t able to come up with anything new to write but yesterday I actually made the discovery that it wasn’t that I didn’t have anything to say, it was that I was fearful of this new version.  How ridiculous is that – so what if my headings now have blue lines and white writing?  I was actually quite shocked when I came to the realization that the different look was freaking me out.  So, is this a sign of impending old age?  Is change becoming more scary for me with each passing day, week, month, year?  What on earth will I be like in another year or so if I can’t face a little blue line? 

One of the triggers toward my realization was a discussion with my mother about learning new things, which came after me freaking out about something in the parking lot at the shopping centre (can’t remember what that was, but that’s another story).  It is really quite frightening to realize that one becomes resistant to change which in turn is a sign of failing to learn new things.  Since learning new things is part of my retirement agenda it is disconcerting to realize that I am not paying attention to myself.

Have you made discoveries like this about yourself?  Things you’d rather not know or acknowledge.  Does it freak you out?  Here I have said over and over “I won’t become an old fuddy-duddy” only to have alarm bells go off (rather slowly, I do admit). 

On the bright side, I did remember that today is Daylight Savings Time and I can happily tell you that this is a system that I have loathed and thought impractical since I was a kid so that is at least normal.

Normal?