Wednesday's Child

I always found the poem disturbing when I got to the Child of Woe thinking it was terrible to give a child that burden. But Wednesday is actually a nice day because it’s the middle of the week and when we have a short week, even that much closer to the weekend.

Are you feeling depressed because of this pathetic spring we are having? I am noticing a very similar trend to last year in my emotions and while I am trying to overcome them I don’t believe I am succeeding as much as I could be. Last year I didn’t recognize my depression but this year I very definitely see my symptoms and I am rather dismayed to discover that I am not able to “snap out of it” the way I want to. I am pretty sure that this is not clinical depression or even very severe depression and yet I am having difficulty in not crawling into bed after supper. I have been forcing myself to go outside and cut grass almost every night for 2 weeks now and I find myself resentful that I have to wear a jacket because it is so chilly. It’s June for heaven’s sake, I should be in bare sleeves and weeding my garden. These angry thoughts go through my head as I push the mower up and down, up and down until the sweat drips from my brow (and hair).

Global warming is an oxymoron in this neck of the woods. Last year we had about 3 weeks of warm weather and this year bodes ill. And as I recall the year before last was not much better. If we are in a 7 year cycle I want to, hmmm, what do I want? Scream? Stick a fork through my ear? (no) Find some place to hide out? Retire and run to Europe where they are having a trend of heat waves? (yes, yes, yes). If you notice a rise in the lottery sales that would be me hoping for my retirement fund to come in (just kidding folks, just kidding). However, I can understand when people start to feel desperate because if David Spence actually said that on the weather forecast I really don’t know what I would do.

We are victims of the weather and this morning I can truly appreciate why the ancient civilizations worshipped the sun. The sun is a very positive image and I almost feel like crying when I don’t see a sunrise at this time of the morning. I should be seeing the first red streaks in the east but instead the clouds are obscuring it. Scream, scream, scream.

Yes, I feel slightly frustrated this morning but I am going back on the treadmill to run that off. See, I am forcing myself to get out of this depression. J