Well, as I
said yesterday, things to ponder. Life
is a rollercoaster and this mind questions how it moves along. I wonder about what effort a person should put
into attempting to change the world. Are
certain people fated to achieve more than others? Do we make choices that cause us to be
effectual in life, or to move in a small circle of influence? How much of life’s direction is caused by
choice or by circumstance? I’ve spent a
good chunk of time pushing to make things happen, to make changes, to create “chance”
but I wonder if I had only stayed still would the same set of circumstances
have occurred?
Thinking about one’s life, about life in
general, and about world events can be both soul sucking and fascinating. Sometimes I want to take my head off my neck
and let it rest and not think and yet to not question what is happening in my
life and around me would be too strange and barren. Even though I can resign myself to being only
a small part of the world I cannot help but be interested in what goes on here
on earth and out in the universe. I life
thinking about history and I like thinking about the future. And yes, I like being in the Now.
When I listen to my mother and other
older people talk I find myself fascinated by their backward looking. It recalls Scarlett’s mantra “I was right
when I said I’d never look back. It hurts
too much, it drags at your heart till you can’t ever do anything else except
look back.” When you compare the apple
of your youth to something out of the Garden of Eden with today’s version being
nothing but a potato you know you are old.
When every paragraph, if not every sentence, starts with “back in the
day” style you know you are not thinking about life today. There’s a way of looking at history that does
not emote the past. There’s a danger in
forgetting analytical thinking.
Ah the human mind, what a tender,
treacherous instrument.
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