I cannot believe we are more than a quarter of the way through the
year and my first thought as I write this statement is “oh no, I am not having a quality retirement
because time is going to fast”. Then a
big breath and I use my meditation teachings “cut yourself some slack” and
don’t panic. Then I look at my blog
listings, only 35 posts in 90+ days which seems deplorable. Then I think, yes but aren’t you working on
quality rather than quantity?
On this small scale one can see how a person,
family, business and so on can get into a vicious cycle of self blame and
anxiety over not producing what one feels should be produced. Then I hope that my poor Henriettas don’t
understand a word I tell them when I go “produce, produce, produce” or “production or the Colonel?” or “the
competition has arrived, production is a priority”. Since they continue pecking at grass and
chase little bugs and feathers I believe they do not pay any attention to me
except when I bring out the big red bowl (filled with bird seed). Then I have their undivided attention and
beware foot trippers!
Until I retired I honestly did not feel that I
was putting very much pressure on myself but at lunch this past Sunday my
girlfriends listened to me talk about the “Jumpstart Your thinking” book and
when I told them I had purchased an appointment book so I could log my daily,
weekly and monthly accomplishments they looked me in the eye and said “Sue,
that’s a problem”. I blushed but
secretly I thought “I’m still going to do it”.
But on the other hand I have done some really
cool stuff over the past few months such as attending seminars on bee keeping,
a mini workshop on writing, creating 2 archival scrapbooks of the family,
completed a university course, read a pile of books, went on a bee keeping
mission and today I started raising my second brood of chicks. Not earth shattering stuff but it was all fun
and rewarding and at all times I felt fully engaged in the task at hand. And with all the built in fear of senility I
think that is not bad for one pre-senior.
Can we think up a cool word for that? Pres?
Prez? PreeCee?
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