When I was
young I could go into fights of fancy at a moment’s notice or no notice at all.
These days I find I can still wander off into la la land simply by
contemplating how to spend the 6/49 winnings.
More often than not however I have my feet firmly on the ground which
can be a real inhibitor to creativity. I
picked up a book entitled The Creative Life in the hopes of getting a little
direction on how to get my imagination back on track only to be disappointed by
a narrative about a play. Not what I was
expecting or hoping for. The older I get
and the more authors I note with more than one book to their name, the more
respectful I become.
So now the reality check comes in, the
one where I forgive myself for not being creative enough. Even as I write I am watching the clock on
the computer count down to 4:30 a.m. and I am still in pajamas and not finished
my daily blog. I have to clean up, get
dressed and be out the door before 5 a.m. to get to the unreserved parking by
5:40 at the latest or I will be in danger of not having a parking spot. Then I slug away at my job until 3:45 when I
take an overcrowded train back to the parking, drive another 40 minutes home
where I embrace my mother who has thankfully prepared supper for us after which
I flop on the couch to decompress by watching the Young and Ridiculous. After supper I go out and cut some grass,
pull some weeds or haul away some dead branches. There’s always something to do in the garden
and if I don’t keep up it will become a jungle.
I try not to look at the back 40 which has become a jungle. By 8 a.m. I am ready for bed where I will do
a crossword or Sudoku and then read for a few minutes before I konk out. If I was a dedicated creative writer I would
instead be composing the ultimate novel, wouldn’t I?
People do. That’s the thing. People stay up until midnight and still get
up at 5 or 6 a.m. but I am not one of those people. I cannot survive on less than 7 hours sleep
and my reality is that I can comfort myself with the fact that I am well
balanced, well rested and calm most of the time. Reality check, I am a dabbler but mostly I
can have some fun with it.
So there.
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